Im writing this post a little later than I should and hoping God will restore the words I once so desperately wished to share with you. Im writing this post to encourage those of you reading to adopt so if your on the edge and waiting for the push you better have soft carpet! Here it comes!
Let me start with a little flash back to our final days in Russia. I was alone with Samuel and going through the final steps needed to obtain his exit Visa. It was a difficult day for me as I missed my homeland despite International travel as a missionary for eleven years and I missed my beloved Marcos. I asked God to send me a gift. I knew it was selfish but I even asked for a specific gift. I asked for white Butterflies. Guess what? As I approached the American Embassey in Moscow I was surrounded by three, then four, then atleast five or six and they danced around my skirt while I flashed my ID to the stoic officer at the sidewalk entrance into the building!
At this point you probably think im a bit crazy but let me reassure you, I am. I am crazy in love with Jesus who gives us the Holy Spirit and often surprises me with several answered prayers!
So, let me reassure you if you are thinking about adoption that you should know God is for you and not against you. Last evening was very chilly with rain and cold winds. As we learn to love the differences in our very Russian son and overlook eachothers weaknesses as a family I often need some time alone on my back porch steps. Its just my secret place to talk to God and breathe. I kept asking how we could ever learn all we needed to help Samuel understand this new culture and if our differences would ever help us and not hinder us and then.....right before I could utter another word...I saw before me a beautiful contrast of RED and WHITE....
The differences in color made the image burst with beauty! The differences in texture revealed special details in each and every way! The relationship between the two was harmonious and peaceful. Once again God was reminding me that every moment is taken captive by who He is as our creator. Our differences are what make us beautiful and the sin we find in trying to change anything God has created for a purpose can make us miss the beauty of that very contrast!
Dont be afraid to adopt. Yes, its not the same way everyone forms a family, yes there will be challenges, yes you will need to depend on God and look for His Wisdom but it is all worth it and it is more beautiful than you can imagine!